What if every myth on the planet had some kernel of truth in it? What if it had MORE than a kernel? What if we ALL had the capacity to use the other 96% of our brains currently NOT in use? (Some believe we use at least 10%). What if we ALL had the capacity to see one another’s energy field, or spiritual qualities present? What if we ALL could HEAL Instantly? What if there were NO illnesses? What if? What if we used the FREE energy that was developed by Nicolai Tesla? What if we ALL could talk to one another with the mind only? What if we ALL could actually fly or travel instantly through space and time? Or even back or forward in time?
These and other questions have always mystified, excited, even thrilled me, as I always ‘KNEW’ that someday I was going to fly. Yes, flying through the air much like a bird, but not needing the wings to make it happen. Crazy, its ok, laugh. Please do laugh or I will think you are crazy too. BUT, I AM on a mission that I do not expect everyone, or anyone for that matter to understand, appreciate or accept.
Its clear to me that I should have passed in 2004 when I was hospitalized because my t-cells had dropped to 28 and I could not eat without choking on the food trying to pass through my esophagus, which had been badly damaged from the earlier bouts with thrush and trying to cure it with western chemicals that might as well have been made to clean an oil spill. So why did I live? 10 hospitals in one year, a near death trip in my Ford Ranger trying to make it home to Florida to be with my family to die, ending up in a convalescent home and being kicked out a week later because I was a ‘bio-hazard’ to the Elder Folk.
I lived through the grace of having received Shaktipat from my guru Mark in 2001, that’s how I survived. This is so far behind me now that it seems irrelevant to even write about, but for those on other paths, I want you to have a better idea of who I am, where I have come from and why this Indian siddha path is for me. You see, pranayama yoga, the ancient Indian yog tradition, IS the CURE !!! I am living now 16 years with hiv, five of those years I was on the ‘cocktail’ regimen devoutly. Now I am completely off of the ‘coctail’ for 2 years. Something unusual happened within my guru dreams while I was on this medicine. I was blessed with disturbing insights into the true nature of the illness and what it is doing, in effect, to the humanity. Enslaving each and every one of us with the fear! The fear of close relations, the fear of the devastating effect this disease has on ones body, mind and in my dream states, I realized ‘The Soul’. The soul of a person affected with hiv/aids is nearly obliterated. Power to step outside of Western thought and medicine, courage to stand, what seems alone in the quest for a ‘Natures Cure’ … I only have this inspiration because, as I have written about for years after this 10 hospital incident, ‘I breathe for my guru’. Why would I breathe for my guru? What does that mean? It means I am certain that my destiny through the grace of my guru, is to not only HEAL my hiv COMPLETELY, but to transcend this small 3D illusion that we live in and embrace, through my meditation, through my practice, the realization that ‘I am That’. It’s quite simple. The body dies, the spirit is eternal. EVERY SOUL is eternal. These understandings only come from the experience of having pierced the veil of illusion once or twice.
I am still alive because I LOVE ‘BREATHING with INTENTION’. The act, or the ART of taking sips of atoms with my love for God and having them ‘explode’ in my brain cavity with bliss. What is Bliss? Nectar. The ambrosia from God … merging with pure being. This is bliss. How do you achieve this state? Simply focus on a candle or the sun or the moon for that matter. Or a specific point on the wall. Think of the last time you felt gratitude and then ‘Play Act’ … remember this gratitude so strongly that you smile and take your first, truly relaxing, appreciative, ‘yogic breath’. Yes, the deep bellows breath (breathing in the belly as a baby does naturally) is an important tool to add when you have that first ‘inspiration’, remembering the gratitude, be if for your love for God, the kiss your daughter gave you on the cheek ten minutes ago, or for that pat on the back you got at work. Anything that stirs the heart into having that thought, that feeling of GRATITUDE. There are only TWO things required to create blissful, peaceful moments within your body, mind and soul. First is the ‘thought’ and second is the ‘breath’, the slow, slow, slow breath to reach fullness. The secret is to rest between EACH SIP of oxygen and discover for yourself what transpires. It is in the EMPTINESS, between the breaths, that allows that particle of oxygen to do its transfiguration inside your brain. The ATOM EXPLODES. We were designed by God and as Jesus said, every human being has the Kingdom of God WITHIN HIM. How is that possible? How can we connect to God on this 3 D plane? Through the oxygen … prana … the Holy Spirit. Enough of that for now, but if anyone reading wants to experience Honoring their bodies with ‘Breathing with Intention’ please connect with me and we can figure out a way to make it happen.
Forward to August 2011, only 6 months after I had left Ganeshpuri from my 4th trip to India in 2010 and my 3rd trip to Ganeshpuri.
Lets also step back a bit and start with one fact. My first THREE visits to India, 2003, 2005 and 2008, all with my guru, I never gave ONE rupee to a beggar or a sadhu making his rounds to 'bless'. My pat statement was, 'Bhago' in a deep resonating harshness. That is not to say I did not go beyond my means to help one or two people who I became close to. But those are stories for another time. Moving back to the present, I was introduced to the Guru Gita by Mark Griffin, my guru, a few years back. He asked his students to take up the habit of reciting his 30-minute, 108-verse translation, daily. Being the rebel I was, I made the conscious decision that I would NOT recite this text on a daily basis because I already had everything I wanted to 'Recharge My Battery' as i like to call short or long meditation sits and my deep pranayam breathing. I was what one friend called, 'The Rebel'. I had all the attainments the Guru Gita talks about so WHY would I spend time doing this practice??? But start I did. At first, not everyday, but slowly as I got the amazing feelings and started actually 'doing the practice it describes in detail', in between each paragraph I would have a mini 'yogic breath'. So my sits with this text developed into 2 hour Awesome 'Battery Charges'... when I left the temple from these sits, it became a natural inclination to want to give back.
And now, this is my experience in Ganeshpuri after 9 months 'doing' what the Guru Gita says to do, "Focus your attention on service and working for the welfare of people, instead of using your accrued shakti for self-centered worldly gains". All the homeless know me, don't know my name, but their demeanor changes when they see me, some smile, some are even bowing and the occasional 'Jai Nityananda' ... I sit on the dirty steps with the homeless to have my cigarette, often they start up a conversation or I simply find myself deep in a yogic breath in front of them, giving them a taste of why a Westerner is 'breaking all the caste rules'. I bow to the old beggar ladies who spend half the day sitting near the temple gate waiting to have a devotee offer them alms, or food. I make rounds to find someone really needing food, or something, a doctor’s visit, shoes. It has become a part and parcel with my recitation of the Guru Gita. Shaktimseva. Shaktim sadhu hall, dreams for the elder sadhus and now dreams to bring a new reality of safety to ALL of India’s Elder people. I keep saying, “That is what I am going to tell Congress”.
… Yes, we know I am bi-polar, but does that really fit into the label of the shaktim anymore? Some serious minds here in this village refute the entire idea that I am diagnosed bi-polar, but I now look at this gift of early retirement as ‘The Destiny to have the opportunity to ‘DO IT, JuST DO IT’. Or Do or Die, was the bag I brought home my first time in India and carted around with me for years. I do it in the name of my THREE guru’s, the guru lineage and the holy siddhas and feel shakti pour through me when someone receives my gift with an open heart. Even when they are not conscious enough to look at me I feel this shakti running. I have a yogic monk come into my world, now on average about once every 3 months with a little nugget of information that takes me deeper in my practice. This yogic monk 'sees' everything I do (which at first was quite alarming) and sometimes I feel he is Bhagavan Nityananda himself who is there to gently correct me. "I have patience" was his last comment. Strange meetings for sure, but each time I rise to 'activating' those not so talked about chakras and bindus and find myself merging with all that is. His latest treat has activated my 2nd heart chakra (the second seat located to the right and a little back of the heart chakra). What more could I ask for? My Three Gurus have given me the freedom to explore, to find the truth of the Guru Gita, experientially. Pinda (the attainment of shaktipat) Pada (when the awareness of soham becomes unbroken) Rupa (the enduring vision of the blue pearl), and Niranjanam (merging with pure being) are truths. I experience them daily. Ganeshpuri, the Abode of Ganesh, means (center of spiritual initiation).
What’s next for the shaktim? I asked Bade Babe that tonight when I realized I was completely ALONE in the temple watching from my periphery vision, the Brahman taking a wreath and coming out of the sanctuary, exiting the building. ALONE. ME. How could this happen? Why did this happen? The intimacy immediately transcended me into an Open Field on top of a hill overlooking an expanse of water … as I lifted my arms to shoulder level, not even realizing they were rising, I was struck with this pipeline of extraordinary bliss particles resonating, escalating me far above this 3rd dimensional realm. I was in Heaven. I looked out and saw a mass of people within the sea, also enraptured with bliss, just lifting my hands now I am feeling this same energy pouring into me. It is a remarkable state to be sharing from. This is when I asked my question. Why am I going to Kashmir? What is my intention Bade Baba? I don’t have any concrete plans, only a host family that has been waiting for my arrival since last August. Shouldn’t that be reason enough? Or To keep my agreement to accept their gracious hospitality once more or at least to get out of the Indian summer heat? My concentration stopped. The bliss continued, but the question was not answered, tonight. If you have made it through this read, I salute you. This is free associative writing as far as I am concerned. There was no need to go further, at this moment, with each idea or story shared about my life. It is all in the perfect plan for my truth seeking. Jai Nityananda; Jai Guru Mark
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